Sunday, October 16, 2005

Group Dynamic.

I just finished a meeting with my group for a midterm group project in my Beverages class.

I guess it has been a while since I've hung out with a bunch of people I don't know- and it's not like we were together for more than 20 minutes- but it was one of the more negative conversations I've ever had. Or witnessed, I should say, because I'm pretty sure I said like 3 words the entire time. Anything from the teacher's appearance, the course material, the work expectation, the project itself, and the other students in the class- all of it was subject to ridicule and criticism. The entire time I just kept thinking "how do you live so angrily?" It must be grueling!

It was a clear time when I had a choice to jump on board and join the roasting, or choose not to be a part of it. "So about the introduction..." was a line I used probably 3 times to get us back on track and avoid agreeing with or feeding the gossip. I probably came off as a jerk, but honestly I am glad I didn't even agree with the things they were saying- it was just SO negative that not even the gossip-lover in me wanted to join in (cause sadly there IS that part of me, and hopefully I'm growing away from it more and more).

It was just odd. I walked away feeling perlexed at where all of the hatred and anger comes from in these other students... how angry can you be when you drink wine and talk about food for 3 hours a week? In the end I think it make me realize how happy I am that I'm not a particularly angry person, nor do I find worth in tearing things down just for fun. And that is the result of knowing where it ALL comes from... something bigger than NYU, or my parents, or the President...